I keep thinking that I'm just kind of bullshit that people have to deal with. I keep disappoint people around me. I have too much of flaws. Sometimes I love myself and sometimes I hate my self so much like right now. I'm always follow my feelings in everything that I do. I'm too depend on it until I can't control it anymore. It's make me frustrated when things does not go in my way. I hate it when I'll regret the day after doing whatever that depend too much on my feelings. I keep making excuses and I don't think people are trust me enough like the first time they trust me. Argh I don't even know. I feels like even if I finished my high school and meet new friend, people still will find it hard to deal with someone like me. Ugh I hate myself too. Just what to do when I'm like this :¬