And at the end,
I'll just be myself.

I'm so confused about my personality before,
But not anymore.
Now I understand why I don't have friends when I am 7,
That's just how I am actually. 

When I had friends, I don't know who's the real.
I'm always getting sad over them without reasons.
I feels like they don't understand me,
& they've  never even want to try, at the first place.
Well who even myself to them lol,
And I can feel they're getting tired of me.
Well, sometimes I'm getting tired of myself  too.
And I just feels like sometimes,  I can't get along with them too(?!!) 

I don't know, 
I'm afraid to show 'em my real attitude.
I'm afraid doing anything with them,
And I ended up being a boring person.
being the person who're opposite when I'm with my sister.
;;;;;; Confused.

At the end,
Being myself,
Being the person who're always alone,
(well like what I am at the age of 7..)
IS BETTER. I'm serious.
I just knew that I am an introvert.
Every characteristics of an introvert suit me so much,
I'm not afraid to be alone anymore.
Knowing that it is actually better for me btw.

 
I'm tired of trying to be another person.

Being the person who are always being surround by many peoples are just not me. 

yea I'm envy them. 

But, 

I'll just try to accepting myself